累了。。。真的累了。。。。

心情，身体和精神最近都很不好。。。太多事情发生了。。。发生的让我开始不知道要如何解决和面对。。。但所有的一切总是强迫着我去面对和接受事实。。。

已经不知道过了多少没有你的夜晚。。。是我自己不愿去算。。。不愿告诉自己真的已失去你。。。不愿意面对失去你的事实。。。我一直以为我能够很坚强的做的到。。。但真的好难。。。白天。。。至少我能让我自己忙。。。忙的把你给忘记。。。不让自己有时间静下来想起你。。。但到了夜晚。。。忙完了。。。自己一个人的时候。。。所有一切一切都浮现在我脑海里。。。不管有多累。。。我都睡不着。。。我让自己沉醉于电视剧。。。每天都追到早上天亮了。。。就是还睡不到。。。最后。。。是哭累。。。累的睡着了。。。

望着你的msn。。。你的照片。。。我们的照片。。。所有美好开心的回忆。。。一一的出现了。。。可这更加让我感觉到。。。失去你的痛苦。。。我真的好害怕看到，想到，有一天。。。你会对着别的女生用曾经对我的温柔，溺爱，疼爱，所有的好去对待她。。。我接受不了。。。

我累了。。。我真的不想再撑了。。。我不想再装坚强了。。。但我又能怎样？表现出脆弱的我。。。只会让你说我在装可怜。。。我根本不想装坚强，装伟大，装做一副毫不在乎。。。我想告诉你。。。我在乎！！！我一点也不坚强。。。我需要一个可以让我休息，依靠的人。。。而那就是你。。。但你不可能了。。。

累了。。。真的累了。。。。

~i love my family...~

let's welcome back this little lazy piggy here... i know i know... i know i didnt update quite long d... but ppl lazy ma... so now since got nothing to do... so i come here and write something lo...

new sem start d... everything seems like changed a lot... the feeling towards college... the environment... the class... everything... is just changed...

have been suffering from kinda lots of problem... at last... i finally choose to tell all to my dad... and i was so suprise that he didnt scold me... instead of scolding... he talked to me... he just make me feel so warm... dad... i really love u...

and now... i think all the problems have finally just settle down... i really hope is all already settle down... not temporary... coz... i dowan to have the feeling again...

thanks for my family supporting me all the way... and of course some of my friend... i appreciate it... i really do...

p/s: i already got a sony vaio... yapz... is a pearl white one... at first i didnt wan to get it... but since my bro say ok.... so my dad just get it for both of us... no no... should be 3 of us... coz my mum addicted to the game inside... swt... thanks daddy!!

~life...?~

final exam is over... first sem in CBF is over too... kinda start missing those busy days d... today woke up... feel that my life suddenly is so dull... nothing to do... watch drama for the whole day... damn boring... have to go and find something to learn or to do d... feel like going back to dancing but... dun have the semangat d la... feel like going for yoga... but dowan be alone la... anyone wanna join me? i wanna learn flute... but no money to get a flute... anyone can tell me where to get a cheaper flute than yamaha? and where to go for flute class is better? any suggestion?

suddenly feel that time really passes very fast... 3 months then over d... everyday go to class... talk talk... play play... this and that... one day over d... hope that the second sem all can be in the same class again lo...

back to this thursday... after my last paper... i went to one-u with my family... my dad took a leave... some more becoz of my house got no electricity... so we went out early the morning... then got 3 perfume... one for mum and two for me... haha... anyone like perfume? i m kinda addicted to gucci envy me d... omg... i just love that... but also... i still love my miss dior cherie...

2 to 3 weeks holiday... not that long... but is not short too... donno where to go... but might be going to lagoon on 26th... still under planning... donno yet... well well... really gonna get my self to do something d... cannot everyday also eat sleep and play... like pig only...

there is still problems between me and u... just that r we trying to ignore it or wat? both of us like pretending nothing happen... problems still need to be solved... but still...

p/s: sorry that i kinda long time didnt update my blog... thanks to my lazy bub... i will try to update as more as i could... if i m not lazy to do so... muahahaha....

pp/s: i wanna get myself a laptop... i donno how to choose a laptop... well i know i m lame... i donno all the spec or wat... i just wan a laptop... A WHITE one... i mean... a PEARL WHITE one... any suggestion??

~失恋无罪~

你说我对你紧紧跟随 你觉得疲惫
你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择一个人睡
我忍住眼泪我尊重眼泪
孤独万岁 失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对於人性早有预备
还不算太黑
独身万岁 失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃不是在犯罪

你说我对你紧紧跟随 你觉得疲惫
你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择一个人睡
我忍住眼泪 我尊重眼泪
孤独万岁 失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对於人性早有预备 还不算太黑
独身万岁 失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃不是在犯罪
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪
孤独万岁 失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪我
对於人性早有预备还不算太黑
独身万岁 失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪

~oMg!!~

hmm... was kinda unlucky this feel day... lots of thing happened.... but then... the most unlucky day was yesterday... ish... well well... first i woke up kinda late and rushed to college... then all the thing was going very smoothly... UNTIL... until 12 that time... wanna go for maths class for my test... something oMg happened.... guess wat? i fell down!!! IN FRONT OF THE INTI COLLEGE... the main entrance some more!!! some more that time got a lot of people walking around coz i think its a break time... omg.... omg... even the guard also laughed at me... so bad hor... ya ya... a lot of people saw how i fell down... was so embarrassing... omg... cant believe it wei... luckily got my darling to pull me up and go for class d...

at first i feel nothing at all... no pain... but until i reach my classroom... when my darling started to ask me... " eh darling ah... u got injured anot? got hurt anywhere?" then only i feel like something on my knee.... like kinda pain... then we went to the toilet... and i saw my knee was injured... i mean both also injured... pain la... ish ish... then i quickly use the toilet paper and wet it... then try to clean the injured part... OMGosh!!! it's damn painful!! it looks like just a small case... but then... really painful!!!

so we went back to the class... and take our test... omg... i cant believe this... my leg still continue paining and of course got a bit bit of blood la... then when the air-con was on... i can feel my leg is become more painful... then i cant really concentrate on my test lo... then fast fast finish my test then go for break with my darling...

today when i woke up... my leg was like... muscle cramp? both of my leg were so bloody painful... especially when i walk on the stairs... either going up or going down... my leg was like going to die soon... some more... was suffering from stomachache due to gal's business...

y this few day i keep on suffering from pain... no matter physically or mentally... oMgosh.... can someone just help me to recover from all this thing? i think only time can help me ba... but still... there's someone can help me... but... issit possible? all the thing was just so sudden... everything just happened like that without any expectation... y should all this bloody hell thing come to me? y? can someone tell me y? y issit so unfair to me? but anywhere... this is life.... this is all about life....

~ being tag by Jason... first time... ><~

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
money, family, friends & someone (secret... hehe), my future & of course my doggies leh!!!

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
wah... cant remember leh... food can ah??

3.Where do you wish to get married?
erm... anywhere? as long as its legal? hehe....

4. How old do you think you'll be permanently owned by your lover?
how old? u can plan how long u wan de meh? is that something call forever?

5. Are you in love?
erm... secret?

6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
hong lim restaurant in ss15....

7. Name the latest book you bought?
tuesdays with morrie... (havent touch that book... hehe)

8. What is your full name?
Low Wen Yah

9. Do you prefer mother or father?
both la... duh...

10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time.
jolin? coz i wanna learn her dance step...

11. Christina or Britney?
both also dowan can?

12. Do you do your own laundry?
erm... nopz... dun even know how to use a washing machine... hehehe....

13. The most exciting place you want to go?
Japan & Taiwan!!! (Shopping!!)

14. Hugs or Kisses?
hugs...

15. Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
- crazy
- fair
- sissy (hehehe... dun find me ya)
- loyal to his gf
- wanna ppl to sayang and manja him a lot (especially from his gf)

16. 8 things I'm passionate about
- family
- money
- love
- studies
- dancing
- singing
- reading gu lin's novel
- shopping

17.8 things I say too often
- oh my god!!!
- walau!!!
- like this meh??
- wan meh??
- tata
- dun la...
- aiyerr...
- aiyoh....

18.8 books I've read recently
- marketing textbook
- 2 chinese novel
- no more d....

19.8 songs I could listen to over and over again
~ cry - rihanna~
~ unfaithful - rihanna~
~ zhu wo sheng ri kuai le - wen lan~
~ shui meng er fei - leo & kelly~
~ xi guan - yang cheng ling~
~ ting shuo ai qing hui lai guo - jolin~
~ yue ya wan - F.I.R~
~ christmas in my heart - sarah connor~

20.8 things I learnt last year
~ everything about spm?? ( 10 Subjects)~

21.8 people you tag
~ Gim Gim~
~ Justin~
~ Lavynnia~
~ Mei Wah~
~......~
~......~
~......~
~......~

~sowee...~

really sorry to all my friend which keep on complain that i didnt update my blog for quite a long time... ish... was kinda busy for my studies... got test la... assignment la.... this and that la... walau... feel like the time passes damn fast wei...

finally i finished my first assignment... and print it out d... have to hand up tomorrow... anyway... luckily got ppl help me la... if not i sure die... but wat the hell... another have to hand up on this coming wed... ish... plz... give me some time to rest la... i gonna die soon... some more... got test this week leh... walau... die d die d... hahaha....

well well... this will be a short update la... no choice... lack of time d... but plz... stop complaining la... plz plz... hehe... u all should know i do thing very slow de right? like kuma kuma? some more i damn "mo" de lo... so... hehe... plz bear with it la... will come and update when i m free de la... hehe... take care... tata lo!!!

~off to bed~