累了。。。真的累了。。。。

心情，身体和精神最近都很不好。。。太多事情发生了。。。发生的让我开始不知道要如何解决和面对。。。但所有的一切总是强迫着我去面对和接受事实。。。

已经不知道过了多少没有你的夜晚。。。是我自己不愿去算。。。不愿告诉自己真的已失去你。。。不愿意面对失去你的事实。。。我一直以为我能够很坚强的做的到。。。但真的好难。。。白天。。。至少我能让我自己忙。。。忙的把你给忘记。。。不让自己有时间静下来想起你。。。但到了夜晚。。。忙完了。。。自己一个人的时候。。。所有一切一切都浮现在我脑海里。。。不管有多累。。。我都睡不着。。。我让自己沉醉于电视剧。。。每天都追到早上天亮了。。。就是还睡不到。。。最后。。。是哭累。。。累的睡着了。。。

望着你的msn。。。你的照片。。。我们的照片。。。所有美好开心的回忆。。。一一的出现了。。。可这更加让我感觉到。。。失去你的痛苦。。。我真的好害怕看到，想到，有一天。。。你会对着别的女生用曾经对我的温柔，溺爱，疼爱，所有的好去对待她。。。我接受不了。。。

我累了。。。我真的不想再撑了。。。我不想再装坚强了。。。但我又能怎样？表现出脆弱的我。。。只会让你说我在装可怜。。。我根本不想装坚强，装伟大，装做一副毫不在乎。。。我想告诉你。。。我在乎！！！我一点也不坚强。。。我需要一个可以让我休息，依靠的人。。。而那就是你。。。但你不可能了。。。

累了。。。真的累了。。。。

~i love my family...~

let's welcome back this little lazy piggy here... i know i know... i know i didnt update quite long d... but ppl lazy ma... so now since got nothing to do... so i come here and write something lo...

new sem start d... everything seems like changed a lot... the feeling towards college... the environment... the class... everything... is just changed...

have been suffering from kinda lots of problem... at last... i finally choose to tell all to my dad... and i was so suprise that he didnt scold me... instead of scolding... he talked to me... he just make me feel so warm... dad... i really love u...

and now... i think all the problems have finally just settle down... i really hope is all already settle down... not temporary... coz... i dowan to have the feeling again...

thanks for my family supporting me all the way... and of course some of my friend... i appreciate it... i really do...

p/s: i already got a sony vaio... yapz... is a pearl white one... at first i didnt wan to get it... but since my bro say ok.... so my dad just get it for both of us... no no... should be 3 of us... coz my mum addicted to the game inside... swt... thanks daddy!!